As some of you know on January 26, 2014 my life suddenly changed in a moments flash. As quick as the blink of an eye, my husband, Jim Cook stepped over from his life here into his heavenly home. This is a only a small recount of my amazing journey over the last 7+ years and the awesome power of my Papa to heal me and restore me. I am going to start with a post I placed on Facebook on January 26, 2018, the 4th anniversary of when Jim moved to heaven. This is about the Hope found only in Jesus that we can all have! He’s awesome, majestic and His love will fill every empty place in your life, if you will let Him! Please read it and I hope you enjoy it.
This post is about the grace, love and goodness of my precious Lord!
4 years ago tonight my life changed in a moments time. As we were preparing to go to bed, my husband, Jim Cook suddenly fell in the floor and he was gone. He stepped over into heaven that quickly! I performed CPR on him for approximately 14 minutes before the paramedics arrived. However, their attempts were not successful and he was home with Jesus to stay!
I was alone by myself for about 20 hours until my son and daughter-in-law arrived from Texas the next day. However, God was with me in such a powerful way during that time! Looking back on it, I was so calm and at peace, which I know now had to be the powerful presence of God that was with me and in me. He is AMAZING!
There were times during those next few months that I would be so overcome with the horrific pain gripping my heart and in my uncontrollable sobs and weeping all I could do was cry out to God, “Help me, Lord!” Almost instantly, the weeping and tears would begin to subside and within about 35-45 seconds the tears and pain would be completely gone. I know experientially now what God meant when He told the Apostle Paul, “My grace is sufficient for you” because when I was at the end of my human ability His grace rescued and delivered me many times!
Although this has been the hardest and most difficult thing I have ever had to walk through in my life, I can say that when God does a work He does it completely! He has not only healed me of the trauma of how Jim passed and the emotional pain of losing my precious husband, but He has also healed me of all the emotional baggage that I had carried all my life! It has been an amazing journey with God that has changed me forever! So much more than I ever expected! He loves us so much! He promised that He will never leave us nor forsake us, that He will be with us in trouble, He will deliver us and honor us! He is faithful to uphold His Word, His promise to us!
Do I miss Jim? Absolutely! Every minute! I miss his presence with me, his love for me, his affection, his smile, his infectious laugh and sense of humor, our life together and the years that we won’t have here! Do I grieve for him? Only for what I don’t have, not for what he has! Would I bring him back? NO! He is home! He talked about heaven with a smile and a sparkle in his eye! He said to me many times, “Honey, it’s going to be soooo good we won’t miss anything here!” He had an eternal perspective and he is right where he wants to be! Someday, I’ll be with him again!
But until then I will sing, shout and proclaim the amazing love, goodness, grace, and mercy of my Lord, Jesus Christ and how He has made us all overcomers!
2 Corinthians 2:14 But, thanks be to God, who always causes us to triumph in Christ…